I Feel Like I am Going Crazy

Yes, you probably do at times. However, you are NOT going crazy. Having DID, or Dissociative Identity Disorder is just a coping mechanism that your wonderful brain created for you. At the beginning it's very common to feel crazy, you are not alone. I would imagine everyone who suddenly has another personality talk to them from inside their own mind feels crazy.

The best thing to do is to find a good therapist, join a support group, look into meditation and above all, go easy on yourself. Having DID, Dissociative Identity Disorder, having to deal with having many personalities all in one body, is HARD work.

Try to cut down on your external responsibilites if possible. Simplify your life. However, this does not mean cut yourself off from all human contact and stay in bed. Some days you might have to stay in bed, but for the most part, you will feel better if you try to live your life. Keeping your focus on the present will help you on those days that you feel like you are only re-living the past. Over and over. And over. Again.

Contribute. Look for ways to help others. Yes, I know. You feel like you can hardly put one foot in front of the other. Try to find a small way to help someone else. Outside your body. As I write this, my host is in extreme pain due to some parts that are re-living memories. However, she always feels a sense of accomplishment after we are able to offer advice and maybe brighten the day of someone else. (And yes, she can read this as I write it, kind of looking over my shoulder.) In a few minutes, she is going to rest, but she will rest easier knowing that we have done our little bit to help.

Accept that some days you will feel crazy. But also accept the fact that you are not crazy. You are a perfectly sane person who was treated insanely by someone else in the past.