From an Inner Little One

Hi I am sad and lonely today. i wish i had my own frends. you know? becaue i dont like to play with the daughter, she is too little and not too fun for me. i dont know why. but the husband keeps thinking that just because we are kids we should want to play with her and we DON'T. besides. she stoled my doll.

and it's not like i can go up to kids in the park and say hey you wanna play with me? i think there moms would freak since i am in a big body huh? that might be kind of funny but i dont think it would help!!! and i dont get to chat online ever cause the husband got mad at me that i put messanger on the little computer and that is the one that i am near all the time!! i cant just hang out upstair on the other computer cause we have to take care of the daughter ALL THE TIME.

and i am too smart to hang out with real kids anyways but we dont have any outside frend. you know maybe i can find some grown ups outside that i like to hang out with and pretend i am just big. i dont know.

i found words in a song i like but it makes me kind of sad and happy at the same time. the song is "hello" and one line says "I am the lie living for you so you can hide." and the whole song sounds like she is multiples like us so i like it. but that is the way i feel. like a lie and i can't really live, i have to live for someone else. its from evenesance if you want to know. and heres all the words cause its like me. i feel like i coulda wrote it.

Playground school bell rings again
rain clouds come to play again
has no one told you she's not breathing?
hello i'm your mind giving you someone to talk to
hello
If i smile and don't believe
soon i know i'll wake from this dream
don't try to fix me i'm not broken
hello i'm the lie living for you so you can hide
don't crySuddenly i know i'm not sleeping
hello i'm still here all that's left of yesterday

bye
Little One